dot to dot
Ah, a bit of progress on the hipster pattern. However small. I must keep in mind that even the tiniest bit of headway is still movement in towards the goal. Because right now I feel like I will never, ever get anything done.
Without having a block of time most days that is officially 'work time' (even though it was actually hijacked almost every day by children, appointments, and life) I am back to the 5 minutes here, 23 minutes there, nothing today but maybe tomorrow sewing and pattern making experience. It truly is a different work, more difficult, but sort of interesting in the challenge. The best part is being with the kids. The frustrating part is not actually getting thing else done.
I am coaching my frustrated brain into accepting a more relaxed and big picture reality. I visualize how small acts add up to big change. How tiny little steps take us far far away. How little stitches, taken one by one, will eventually become a quilt. The hope is that playing mind games with myself will help me cultivate a more zen approach. Or at least stop me from yanking out my own hair.
When I think of the sewing machine in the basement gathering dust or happen to catch sight of the new Ottobre that arrived in the mail a few days ago but I haven't properly looked through yet, when I see Smootch could use some new leggings and then get an idea for a hat that would be so very useful right now, and there is a pile of mending and the west coast quilt squares stacked up for embellishments, and wasn't I supposed to have a some stuff ready for a market new month?, and...
Breathe. Must remember to breathe.
Breathe and play with pointillism. Sitting down with the kids, doing some drawing (which both, thankfully, are very much into right now), I pick out images slowly with small dots, and think of how amazing those little pen taps add up to a whole picture. It's my meditation, an intersection between perspective and non-effort. For a brief moment, the urgency recedes and I am right there with the kids, my creativity, and my tiny efforts that stack up into accomplishment.
So I keep moving.