2.24.2010

stillness


Every once in awhile I put a bit too much on my plate. And I am not a person to know when to say when. I read a lot, I get ideas, I promise the kids, The Man, the world... and then I start to spontaneously fall asleep on the couch when I sit down to read a book to the children. Or lose coordination of my limbs when I'm walking down the hallway and bump into the walls. Or scare myself when I pass a mirror as some worn out looking hag suddenly appears.

Lately the slow, lazy times with the children - the times where there's Not Much Going On, but are as perfect at a time that can be had - have been scarce, and the fuzzy-brained, mildly panicked feeling of being overwhelmed has become uncomfortably familiar. I am no A-type personality. I do not thrive on busyness. I am a terrible juggler. I have, in university, actually put forth articulate arguments in A plus earning essays why daydreaming leads to greater productivity and increased social value. I know this, but I do not always live it.

Someone I love very much has suggested that I need to push back from the table for awhile and just breathe. Get some more sleep. Take a walk or two. Read a vacuous novel. And I said, 'thank god, yes!'

I am taking a small hiatus, as best I can, from the blogging and compulsive internet checking. Just a week or so. (Okay, I may post a picture or two, but I won't try to tell anyone what to do.) I will still putter along on my projects, but mostly I will be napping. Or getting reacquainted with my kids over a block castle. I am explore the idea of learning to balance a bit my various passions, my sewing, my family, life, the universe, and everything. To that end, I think it will also be helpful to walk the beach and not look at a computer screen for several consecutive hours during the course of a day :D

This is me try to relearn what stillness feels like.

11 comments:

  1. I hope you enjoy your time away. I have found myself becoming obsessed with this blogging community and sometimes detached from very important real community...my family. I too have stepped back and am spending more time with them and creating and less time in the blogging world. Good luck with balancing all things important to you!

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  2. Aint life grand - it zooms up and past, then comes full circle and smacks you in the head. Hah. I completely understand this but forget again until it happens the next time.....

    Enjoy the vacuous novel, block castles, naps and stories on the couch.

    We'll see you when you have time.

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  3. Enjoy your "me-time"! We will all be here when you're back!

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  4. enjoy your hiatus! i'll pray you find the rest and stillness you need!

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  5. reading your post I felt my inner speaking, actually I think the inner me was screaming at me "see this chickie has got it right, why can't you get it????". Enjoy your time and recharge, I enjoy your blog although I don't post much and I hope to see you around for a long time to come.

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  6. Spring is a perfect time of year to sit still.

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  7. I've never understood how people have time to make things, take photos and write up the instructions - let alone do all the other family stuff. I admire all those organised people who find the time to blog and to share. So thank you for the time and inspiration you have given us.

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  8. I've admired your blog since I started sewing (march 2008) and your peasant top tute was one of my first sewing projects. In fact, I've become a little obsessed myself with keeping up with my fave blogs, but I'm only reading them, not writing them. I do have a blog, but I think only my mom reads it, and frankly it's really quite boring... :) I can't keep up with the creating, the writing, the photographing, the tending to little important people, the full-time job working... phew.... so hats off to you for doing it so well, but also for recognizing that you do need a well deserved break. Enjoy the hiatus!

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  9. Enjoy your hiatus...you deserve a break!

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  10. I have sooooo been there. Enjoy your disconnect, enjoy your children, your love and your home. I know there will be a niggling in the background but try to ignore it, the internet will all still be here when you get back!!

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